The waiting game.
I want a do-over! Four months of volunteering, of writing, of working 2 jobs just to get by. Four months of a distance ed course. Reflecting on my self, my actions/inactions, making personal changes to prove that yes, I am ready to re-enter the PDP program. And then I was unable to articulate those changes in the interview.
Boo. Now I wait 2 weeks or more to find out if I am in or not. If not, I'm not sure what I'll do. I didn't make a back-up plan. So I'll not think about it. I'll go to the summer job, enjoy myself, and panic when I get back. Or celebrate, as the case may be.